Whoa wait...I'm gonna be a mom?!?!?

A little errked right now…my sister just texted me asking if I want her in the room if they induce me (which I’m not sure if there is some reason I wouldn’t want people in there), if I have a coach, and then she asked if Joe was going to be there….I’m not sure why but that kind of offended me.
I mean why wouldn’t he be there for the birth of his child? I’m sorry I don’t have a perfect little marriage like you with your two perfect kids, perfect 4bedroom house ect, I mean sure we are not married but we have been living together for over a year, engaged since before we got pregnant, he’s been to all my appointments besides the last few when they were just quick check ups, he was the one who was so overly excited the night we found out and was calling everyone while I sat on the floor in disbelief. He has done so much in the past 9 months to turn this old house into a home for us.
How could she even question whether he would be there for me and the baby??? He already has his bag packed and ready to go.
Ok just needed to vent somewhere safe.

So now I am 2 days before my “Due Date” and nothing is happening still…..ok things are happening but still nothing constistent, nothing that is good enough to get me to the hospital.

The plan now is that I will go in for an ultrasound on Thursday morning to check her size and positioning, if things look ok then I will continue with being induced on Thursday night. If things aren’t ok (which my doctor thinks the baby isn’t down as far as she should be and I’m only half a cm dilated) then I will be scheduled for a c-section on Friday Morning.  At first I was very upset and concerned but now I have come to terms with it and I’m doing much better.  I am just very anxious to meet her so I wish things would work out so that she will come before Friday but it just doesn’t look like that’s gonna happen…

Alot of people tell me stories of how they or someone they know went crazy with “nesting” and cleaned their whole house and then went into labor that night or next morning…so I should be on the lookout for that….which makes sense but with me, I feel like I have been “nesting” for a couple weeks now.  I am always on the go and trying to get everything done I possibly can, I have never been one to sit and relax for long so I’m not sure if I will really have one of those full on nesting days lol. 

Positives for having to wait till Friday….my last day at work will be this Wednesday, so I only have a couple more days here then I’m out for 8 weeks. So I have all my FMLA paperwork good to go and timesheets ready for the next 8 weeks….and pretty much everything work related is good to go and ready for me to be gone for 8 weeks….I just gotta get through 2 and 1/2 more days here.  Which don’t get me wrong, I love my job but I’m ready to get the EFF outta here for awhile and finally meet my daughter. 

This also gives me plenty of time to make sure my bag is good and packed (it is already for the most part, and I will probably forget something anyway)

I will be able to somewhat drive calmly to the hospital Thursday night or Friday Morning without feeling like I am in a rush to get there because the baby could come out any moment lol.

And maybe I will feel a little better bringing home a 4 day old instead of a 2 day old….and my sister says its a good time to relax and let the nurses take care of you before you have to head home and feel like you are on your own.

BUT….I would prefer if Miss Adelyn would make an appearance before Friday!!